i was so sad, or rather,
devastated, when (in order) Etienne (although he left like 2 weeks ago and I wasn't feeling that much pain then, but still, he is special in my heart too!) Christina, Martha, Severine, Pauline, Montse, Rob, Whitney,Florie, Jeanbaptist, Andrea, Mindy, Kevin (basically, the
entire Panorama!) left within a 24 hour period time frame on 22 Dec that the whole of 22, i was basically crying the whole day. In fact, I even felt like closing this blog to start a new one, but alas, I reasoned that that is stupid cos' this exchange is so special and should always be part of my life. And this blog documents my life so all these wonderful memories should stay with me. Therefore, I am finally blogging again after 2 days. After Rob left, I felt so weird in my double room as I am all alone now andI simply cannot stand seeing the other half of my room which is all empty. In the end, after 1 hour of tossing around in bed trying very hard to sleep, I had to call fmy riends and talk to them. I had never felt so emotional before in my life. In fact, I felt so fucking screwed up to a certain extent while I was crying over MSN to Wenfang. Thanks Wenfang for hearing me out and also to Josephine and Tina. In the end, I had to leave my room cos it's just too sad to face a now all empty room- a room where so much joy was shared and more fun were created. A room which will never be the same again. Of course, I had to do what all other self deserving sad lonely soul will do - shopping. Bought myself a pair of new adidas shoes with goodyear soles! awesome buy and after 109.95 euros poorer, i left the shop happy.

Had to come back to prepare dinner for Andrea (leaving at 8pm) and Kevin and Mindy (at 4am the next morning). Just an absolute last dinner with them and the Thai girls. I felt so lonely cooking on the L8 kitchen, a kitchen where so much joy were shared and exchanged and new friends found, and much bonding were made. Hate the kitchen now and I don't think I'll ever wanna cook again. It just pains me to be alone there facing the now empty room. After cooking, went down to L7 to eat with them and as I was making my toast, I cannot help but, yes, cry again. It's just too hard. Just too hard.


During dinner, we heard from Claus that Rob and Whitney (or R&W) were stranded in Paris for 1.5 days as their flight to states from CDG is non-existant. Basically, STA travel screwed up their flight plans! So they had to sleep in CDG for a night! Whitney just skype me and told me that they were the last 2 on stand by to be allowed to board from Atlanta back home. We all had such a fun time at dinner imitating how Whitney would have screamed at Rob and cursed at STA at CDG. Too funny, and luckily, it took some pain and sadness of from dinner and in Mindy's room while she was packing. It was also hilarious to see how Mindy attempted to strategized her packing. Also did my last laundry in Panorama that night. So funny of Mindy to say that we probably spent more time in the fucking laundry room than school cos of all the German instructions and difficult to operate machines. Till date, i am still very puzzled by them! So glad it's all over!

The next day, I still felt bad after waking up around 1pm and luckily for me, Tina was arriving from Prague. I decided to go Praterstern to pick her up. Reached there 30 minutes late and didn;t see her so I came back. Mook told me that Tina was in her room and upon hearing that I was at Praterstern, she actually went back to look for me, but then again, I was already back in my dorm. Decided to call Mook's number which was passed to her and meet her at Zara in Stephansplatz. We walked around the city for a while and because I still felt so upset, even Zara failed to cheer me up as too many memories of shopping there with Whitney flashed back. Yes readers, even Gerald can get
sick of Zara, literally. Walked out of the damn shop and told Tina how I missed all of them and all the fun time we had walking down KartnerStrasse and I actually started tearing again! The walk was so emotional because just on Wednesday night we're all walking on it on our way to Soho. And we had so much fun. Anyway, Tina started rolling her eyes and commented on how pathetic I was but she was so nice in trying to get my mind off them by bringing me into Swarovski. Tina bought a lovely pendent and the shop did cheer me up a little. Come on, with so many sparkling glittery crystals, my eyes were too dazzled to cry!


Anyway, Mook, Cha and Fon (The Thai girls) made a very delicious dinner for Tina and Me and that really helped lifted Tina's and mine spirits! Thanks! After dinner, we head out to Rathaus Christmas market for some photo taking session. On the tram, I'd realised that I had never taken a phot of myself in the Tram so asked, or rather,
directed Tina to take one for me! haha



Today, I finally got over most of the sadness and decided to go with Tina to the Museum of Modern Art but alas, it was closed and therefore we decided to try our luck at Diglas. It was opened! Had traditional Viennese desserts and an omelette before heading to meet Faizah and gang for Xmas eve dinner at Latte Grande. Paid 13.50 euros for a good spread of buffet and we all had a great time there! Meeting them tomorrw for coffee with Claus and Lou at Diglas. Cannot wait!







After dinner, Tina and I decided to do some Vogue shots at the U Bahn station on our walk home since we missed the last 11A bus back to Adolf Scharf Heim.

